October 2

I am finding I am missing my gratitude journal.

I thought it might be difficult, doing a 30 days that required adding something in to my already jam packed life.  But 30 days makes a habit, it seems, and I miss the space that is left without it.

This new 30 days, it is going to take some adjustment.  It is a 30 days of subtraction rather than addition and I think it is going to be harder.  In a lot of ways.  Harder to track, harder to celebrate, harder to check off as "done".  Harder because watching my diet all day long takes a lot longer than a 5 minute journal entry, it turns out.  And harder because what is being subtracted, is something I love.  Namely, food.

So my goal each day of the 30 days is simple. Nat and I want to go back to the diet we used with such success in the spring, and whittle off the next 5 pounds or so.  I'm allowing myself a bit of leeway from the 1600 calorie plan.  The idea is, follow it to a T for Breakfast, Lunch and Snack requirements, then allow myself a dinner of my choosing.   So far, mixed success.  Today, in fact, was declared a Non-Diet day as we were heading to a birthday party and nothing says "good times" quite like having to refuse pizza and cupcakes.  It was a good day, and it was good pizza, and tomorrow is a new day and a new week and I am going to stick to this.


But in the meantime, I'm going to give myself a sentence.

Today I am grateful for houses full of children and babies and presents and laughter, for rainy-day fall drives down country roads and memory lane, for coffee shared in the car and candle-light whispering on the walls of our home.   Welcome, Fall.